[Trash-talk] the pleasures of having no friends

[Anette *Starvin Marvin*]

>i go to meet people and think that some people just are not friendly... 
>maybe they're shy..
That's me. I'm one of those shy people. Remeber back in April during the UK 
tour? I didn't talk to Shell and Sirin because I was afraid to and it turned 
into a big mess of misunderstandings and I felt they lashed out at me (and 
Claire) on their website because I was so shy..! I have never been an 
outgoing person, nor do I think I'll ever be. But I try. But when I try I 
suddenly find myself talking to more people than I can handle and I get 
confused and scared and I don't know where to turn so I walk away and then 
people think I'm a weird freak. And I mean that in the sense(sp?) that 
people think that I think I'm better than them and I don't need to talk to 
these "low-lifes".
When I get frightened I tend to get hostile. Unfortunately I get scared when 
I meet too many new people at once like I did at a few garbage gigs and I 
think people saw me as an angry little Norwegian girl instead of the sweet 
person they met online. Online I can say and do what ever the fuck I feel 
like, but in reality I'm the opposite. And people don't think I am. Things 
easily get misunderstood.
However, if I meet the right people that I feel comfortable around, people 
that are [like yourself] outgoing and friendly, then I become the same..! We 
had a lot of fun in France, I didn't get scared. The people I met were 
limited and it was all just fun and games. Like when we sang outisde the 
venue in Paris. Normally I would never do such a thing, but I felt 
comfortable enough around you to do it. We got along very well.
I would have talked to you more in Camden, but the situation there was far 
different.

@nette



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>From: "Shirley vixen" <cmonshirl at hotmail.com>
>To: trash-talk at tcp.com
>Subject: Re: [Trash-talk] the pleasures of having no friends
>Date: Sun, 23 Feb 2003 16:40:29 +0000
>
>>	I have the same exact thing - in "real life"
>>  I hardly ever say anything while in presence of many
>>  people. I am very eloquent online, on the other hand.
>>  I'm too sensitive, I think. I fear someone might
>>  be upset because of something I might say and attack
>>  me ??? I have no idea.
>
>
>i am quite the opposite to this.. its strange to see how we are all so 
>different..
>
>i am naturally very outgoing at gigs and stuff i want to talk to everyone.. 
>i do introduce myself to everyone that i have even just heard of online.. i 
>lie to chat.. meet new people.. network.. give hugs be part of this group.. 
>of course despite how "effortlessly" i may portray this.. i actually find 
>it incredibly different as it scares me a lot.. because i fear im being 
>disliked.. of course some of the terrible nasty brush-offs ive had have 
>really put me off as well... but then i thought to myself, "fuck you if you 
>cant be nice to someone who is being friendly just cos you're here to see 
>*your* band then fuck you" i go to gigs for garbage yeah but its more than 
>that to me.. but i dont know..
>
>lou
>xx
>
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